Dear Facebook Diary......

OH MY GAWD!!!! Where have I been? I know you all missed me so very, very much. But I have been busy being a loving wife and mother and shit!

Soooo much has happened since I last wrote. I can't remember much of it, cause my meds have my memory all fucked up.....but I'm sure it was all awesome!!

As usual, I have been inspired to share my two cents on a subject. The subject tonight is, "Why using Facebook as a diary, pisses me off".

You all know what I'm talking about. You have the friend or family member, that posts absolutely EVERYTHING about their lives on their social media accounts. You know that SoandSo is broke, had their car repossessed and might have syphilis.....but you have no idea if you've ever actually met them.

I'm so tired of seeing posts like that. I don't think I'm alone in saying, that I give zero fucks about how depressed you've been feeling, about who you hate, or about a link for your Gofundme. I'm broke as shit too! You just don't know it. Mainly because, I don't plaster that fact all over my personal page for the 60+ kids I went to high school (15 YEARS AGO) with to see. (I'm not really broke, but you get the jest. For those of you concerned, I'll paste a link to my Gofundme at the end of this post)

So if you're reading this and it offends you, odds are, you share entirely too much information with the interwebz. Instead of being angry with me, go scroll through your pages and re-read your shit. Pretend you don't know you. What kind of person is portrayed by your posts? Comment back here when you're done!!

The moral of this story....keep your personal shit, to yourself. I just wanna see cute kids and read happy stories.

Mommy Wars, sanctimommy's and me.....

I must have missed the issue of whatever style magazine it was, that decided kids were the fashion accessories of this century.

Apparently, we are no longer having children to share our love with and expand our families. Now, we're having them to one up each other with our, "I'm so superior to you", parenting skills.

Unfortunately for me, I also missed the memo that declared any mother (not parents mind you, just mothers) that;

• does NOT have a drug free home birth
• does NOT take their home birthed newborn directly to a chiropractor for an alignment???
• circumcises
• formula feeds
• vaccinates
• does NOT use essential oils in place of actual medical treatment
• does NOT cloth diaper 
• does NOT babywear or co-sleep
• does NOT make their own organic, GMO and gluten free foods
• does NOT practice "peaceful parenting"

....is a shitty excuse for a mom and should have never been allowed to procreate in the first place.

Some days....these sanctimonious bitches piss me off to no end. Today, those self righteous twats just make me giggle.

What I really love, is the vast majority of them think that, because they have managed to keep ONE CHILD alive for 36 months (which is 3 years for all you normal folks)....they are experts and you should listen to them, buy the essential oils they just became authorized to sell..... and/or read their TOTES AMAZE blog.

So over it people!!!! Stop listening to what those new age, hipster, trend loving lemmings are telling you is the proper way to parent. Truth is, there is no proper way to parent. Every mother/child relationship is unique. What works for one mom, may not work for you. So instead of beating each other down for doing what works for us. How about, we realize that raising children is hard enough without a bunch of Google loving bitches harping on us.  How about, we just agree to disagree and leave each other the fuck alone.

Also.....stop with the nurse-ins. They're just weird and hardly prove a point. Yea, I said it.

Tell it to your fellow donkey's!!!!

Don't you just LOVE when people give you a hard time? Or how about when they judge you and your family, even when they have no idea what your about?

I know I do!!

Okay not really, makes me livid. But that doesn't seem to stop people from being blatant assholes. The very best, is when those people see nothing wrong with it. Or they think it's allowable because they are "family".

Haven't these people learned that I am not one to put that "family" word on a pedestal?

As far as I am concerned...the only people allowed to verbalize their opinions on my life, are the ones that brought me into this world...and the ones that sprang forth from my mothers womb like I did. Everyone else has to earn the right to tell me what they think about me.

I know that this might make me sound a bit self righteous. BUT...I don't give a shit. I know too much about this world and the people in it, to allow ANYONE to throw stones at me.

 I KNOW I am not perfect. I KNOW that there are things that I could improve on...like really improve on. Thing of it is.....it's not anyone's business, but mine.

If you haven't guessed by now, someone else in my "family" has pissed me off. Mostly because he is a jack-ass and knows it. He's also a highfalutin, condescending, misogynistic, egotistical ASSHAT!!!

UGH!!!! This is what you get when you piss off a very pregnant and sleep deprived woman.

So yea, the moral of this story is.......if my life bothers you so much, THEN STAY OUT OF IT!!!!!

Get the f**k outta here......

Have I mentioned that I am short fused?? I just don't have a lot of patience for people.

Most times, I am very pleased with this fact. It means that I don't take anyone's shit and I don't allow people to do me wrong.

But sometimes (VERY VERY RARELY) I feel bad about being so short with people.

For instance, I told you about my friend, the one who went to take care of her demons?!? Well, I also think that I mentioned how disappointed I was with her family, for not taking a more active role with her kids. At any rate, my friend has been home for about 2 weeks now and she is doing great!! But this week, her family came to visit her. She told me that her mother wanted to come by and thank my husband and I for what we did.

I told my friend (in the nicest way I could manage, which isn't easy for me) that she could keep her "Thanks"...it was too little and WAY to late.

Thing of it is, I found myself feeling a little bad about. it. I think its because I know, that sometimes, people just cannot perform under pressure. In serious situations, some people just freeze up and loose all common sense. I wonder if that is what happened with my friends family, in which case, I feel bad for them.

It does not, however, change the fact that at this point in time....I just don't want anything to do with her people. I think that they failed her and her kids.....and since they are not MY family, I have no reason to forgive or forget.

Is that wrong of me???

EVERYONE has issues.......

I have to be careful with this post. I have to attempt to share my experience, without putting too much of another persons business on the table.....

Lets see how this goes.

So, a very good friend of mine is going through a personal struggle. Her demons have finally gotten the best of her and she has had to seek outside help. I, for one, am very very proud of her. It's hard enough to admit to those who love you, that you need help. It's even harder to go and get it.

So aside from being fully supportive of her leaving to get help. My husband and I have chosen to take care of her two children.

These kids aren't just my friends kids. They mean more to me than that. These kids are like my own. I am invested in their well-being. I love them.

So they are staying with us. For as long as need be.

Now, before you start to asking....YES...I have three kids of my own. YES...I am pregnant. NO....I don't need to anymore stress. But honestly....NO....none of that is a concern at this point.

Right now, these kids need me and truth be told....I need them. I need to be able to see them on a daily basis and KNOW that they are fine. I need to able to hold them when they are sad and giggle with them when they are happy.

Okay that is part one, the biggest and most important part. Here is part two.

I am terribly disappointed with her family and the father of her children. If I where her....I would hope that my family would call and check on my children. I would EXPECT that their dad would call and talk to them and tell them that everything is going to be okay. None of this has happened. I could truly give two shits about how angry they are with my friend. I don't give a damn about them being disappointed in her. That has nothing to do with the fact that these children have just been separated from their mother and left with people who aren't their parents......it's shitty and they should be beyond ashamed of themselves.

But you know what??? It's whatever!! My husband and I are HERE for them. My parent's and my brother, are HERE for them. We always will be. They are going to know that they are loved and they are going to get through this just fine.....because I won't have it any other way!!!

The moral of the story is....Everyone has issues. NO ONE is perfect and NO ONE has the right to judge. If you feel you do have the right.....then be bold enough to say it to someones face. Otherwise, your just a spineless, shit-talking
asshole. Nighty Nite!!!

You see what you made me do??

I was trying VERY hard not to share my feelings on the whole "Trayvon Martin" case. I really was going to just let people have their ignorant outbursts and sit quietly, biting my tounge.

But I have had enough. I have reached my "asshole tolerance" level and if I bite my tongue any harder, it'll cause permanent damage.

The ruling on that case.....was a bunch of low-grade, high stink BULLSHIT!!!

Regardless of what race the involved parties were.....that ruling was a crock-o-shit. That man MURDERED that boy....who was unarmed.....and he got away with it. Scott free, as they say.

Okay, so other than that (EVERYONE knows it was crap....even those who were rooting for Zimmerman, know he was guilty as sin), the latest wave of whiners is really getting under my skin.

You all know what I am talking about. I am sure you have seen the post on social media or heard it on the news or radio.

People are upset that the Black community is pitching a fit. I have had pictures of white men, women and children who were assaulted or murdered by black people, all over my Facebook wall since the verdict was read.

All of them have pretty much the same message. "Where was Al Sharpton and Jeese Jackson when....."
or "How come the President didn't speak out about so and so being murdered by 3 black dudes?". "When is the NAACP going to say something about this person...." IT IS DRIVING ME NUTS!!!!

Seriously people....are you really that dense that you can't figure this out on your own??? You are making more noise bitching about other noise makers.....than you do about the crimes committed. If you invested the same amount of energy making your own stink about the people in your community, whose lives have been lost.....they would get the same amount of air time as poor Treyvon has.

Instead, you want to sit around talking shit and hating black people. Yes, that makes perfect sense....LMAO!!!!

Here's the thing. For MANY MANY MANY years....the black community had NO VOICE. Crimes were committed against black people (we're talking REALLY HORRIBLE CRIMES) that police and government turned a blind eye to. Today, things are much much different. The Black community was given a voice and has since then...refused to shut up. So when crimes are committed against black people, by white people...and you get rulings like the Martin-Zimmerman ruling.....you get some very pissed off and incredibly noisy black people. We feel that shit a little differently than you do. That is because our grandparents and great-grandparents fought for that voice. And they taught us to speak up for ourselves....and to make as much noise as we have to, until we are heard.

That is what the Reverend and Al Sharpton and President Obama and all those other black community leaders and spokespersons are doing. They are making some noise for that boy. They are letting the whole FUCKING WORLD know that this is not okay. But still there are those that would silence us. That would paste photos of their lost loved ones on the internet, not as a cry for justice....but to whine about all eyes being on one little black boy. It's a shame.

The really sad part, is that no one seems to see this....and things are going to get out of control.....again.

So much for being nice.....

A few weeks ago, I had decided to start a "one-woman kindness campaign". I was going to say something kind and sincere to at least one person, everyday. The purpose was to share happiness, to give people a reason to smile.

I had decided to start with the people on my Facebook friends list. Cause saying nice things to people I at least SOMEWHAT know, just seemed easier.

Turns out, being nice is creepy.

You heard it here folks, saying random kind words to people, just for the sake of making them smile....makes you a creepy individual!!

So my campaign only lasted a few days.....because while I enjoy making people smile and feel good about themselves, I am not into being called a "creepy friendless loser".

HA HA HA....yes, being nice makes you friendless as well. Because I couldn't possibly say something nice without trolling for friends....right??

So long story short...I was right, people suck. On to my next endeavor!!!

It's just a matter of opinion.....

I am sure, that some people are going to read some of this and feel offended. So just read the whole thing first...and then you can feel offended.

So I suppose I should start off by saying that this is just my opinion. I also want to say that I am aware that circumstances often play a big role in this topic too!!

Okay, I guess the nicest way to say this is....I have strong opinions about women with multiple children from multiple men. There are words associated with such women, words that I will refrain from using.

For me, it was very important to me that all my children have the same father. I guess I am "old school" in that respect.....or I have respect for myself....whichever!!

Again, I know that there are unique circumstances (such as death or divorce) that lead to more than one "baby daddy", but I'm not referring to those. I am talking about the girls that have 4 kids, each 18 months apart and each with a different dad. THOSE are the ones that irritate me and cause me to bash my fellow woman.

The best part about this, is when those same women get all worked up about being called out of their names. Seriously?? The truth...she hurts!!!

I understand that birth control fails...I have had two BC pregnancies. BUT DAMN....if you know that your THAT fertile....practice abstinence. Either that, or face the "You's a hoe" music!!!

So there you have it. I have hoe prejudices.....

No more....I can't take it....

I really wish stupid people, would stop doing stupid things.

It's more for their sake than mine.

I am entirely too outspoken and sarcastic for stupid people.

Have you heard about the latest drug trend? Your gonna love this!!

It's smoking alcohol....yes, you read that right. Literally smoking alcohol.

People are inhaling the fumes from alcohol, which apparently cause an instant high.

The problem is that, your taking one drug and turning it into another much more potent drug.

You can check out these links to learn more about it....but it had to be started by some incredibly stupid people.

Today.com- smoking alcohol.
Ehow.com- smoking alcohol.

To my neighbor....

Dear Dumbass,

I regret to inform you, that you are no longer wanted.

No one can stand you or your partner. We are tired of being party to your fighting, and refuse to call the police as per your bi-weekly requests.

Apparently, you like being physically and mentally abused. You want this for your children as well, it seems.

It has also come to our attention, that your so called "boyfriend" has a thing for children.....well.....I have children and will cut someone in their honor. So he has to go, and so do you!!

Women like you, give us all a bad rep. Women like you, make us appear weak and inferior.

Luckily, women like me, will move heaven and earth to protect my children from asshats like you and your boyfriend.

Please evacuate post-haste...or else.....

Sincerely,

Your Pissed off Neighbor!!!

Two steps forward...8 steps back

On Tuesday, June 25th 2013.....the Supreme Court kicked the Civil Rights Movement in the ass.

They made the genius decision to basically gut the Voting Rights Act of 1965. Ya know, the one that gave Blacks the right to vote...yea, that little thing.

They gave 9 states, the freedom to change up the election laws without getting the okay from the federal government.

The best part of all this, is the states that they deemed responsible enough to have this power.....you ready for this?

ALABAMA, Alaska, ARIZONA, GEORGIA, LOUISI-FREAKING-ANA, MISSISSIPPI (WTF!!), SOUTH CAROLINA, TEXAS AND VIRGINA..........

Do you feel like you got knocked in the head with a stupid stick?

Yea, I felt that way too.

How can this be happening...and of all the shitty times too!!!

Racism is rearing its UGGG-UU-LLLYYY head....it's EVERYWHERE right now. And now this....its a sucker punch. A slap in the face.

At a time when we, people of color, need to feel uplifted and accepted....the government reminds us how precarious our situations are.

It's a shame....because the WRONG PEOPLE are going to take this as a victory. They are going to see this as the government being "back on their sides".....and they are going to lose their fucking minds.

I will not cower from my neighbors....I WILL BE ACCEPTED, because that's how it should be.

Black, white, hispanic...gay, lesbian, transgendered.....I see, accept and LOVE you all!!!!

TEACH TOLERANCE!!!! SCREW THE SCOTUS!!!!!

Perhaps I was wrong.....

In my earlier post, I said that there was no cure for racism. 

There is some truth to that, there will always be intolerance in this world.

 Not just intolerance for race, but for sex and sexual preference and just about anything else that makes us different from one another.

But there is a hope for racism. There has been for quite some time. In the case of Martin Luther King Jr. ....it was a dream. 

For me, it's a hope.

 That one day people will not see color.

 That one day, bi-racial and multiracial children will not be "different", but the norm. 

I hope that people will realize that we are stronger when we stand together, not just in times of tragedy, but everyday. 

I hope that my children will not have to experience the hurt that intolerance creates. That they will grow up feeling like Americans....not Afro or Mexican American.....just American. 

I am going to do my part.

 I am going to teach tolerance to whomever I can, whenever I can. 

I am going to check my way of thinking as well....I guess you could say that I am "starting with the man in the mirror".

I hope that people will read this and realize they are in need of some changes as well. Everyone is guilty of intolerance....even me. We ALL need to work on it....if not for ourselves, then for our kids. 

Otherwise we are just raising a bunch of future assholes that will undo all the good that has been done.

No one is safe.....

There is a plague gripping our nation. It's not new, or unheard of. 

It's actually as old as time, and has caused a great deal of death and destruction. 

It causes people to live in fear, and divides us.

It was in a kind of remission for awhile there...but it appears as though it is thriving once again. 

Racism is alive and well....and it is everywhere.

It lives in your neighbors and friends......even in your family. 

And there is no cure.

We are doomed........

The "Religion" Post.......

Current events....well they suck. 

There is no such thing as happy news anymore and the tidbits that you do get....are usually somehow tied to a tragedy. 

It's easy to find oneself on the topic of religion, when it seems as though the world is going to hell in a hand basket. People are dying, children are starving, the government is scheming....

Okay, I should say this though. What I am about to say it relevant only to me. These are MY views and MY opinions and I am in no way preaching these. As with all things I post, take it or leave it, I'm still gonna say what I mean and mean what I say. 

Here we go......I am not 100% convinced that there is a God. Hell, I'm hardly 50% convinced.

It's out there now, I said it. 

I am not sure that there is or can be, an almighty, in such a fucked up world.

I read an article a day or two ago, about a little girl that died back in December of 2012...you can read it for yourself, although I don't recommend it. Read the full story here! 

This poor baby, (and I do mean BABY, she was only 4 months old) was rapped, beaten and strangled by her mothers boyfriend. The baby died from the injuries she suffered, mostly the ones to her anus....yes, you read that right. That sick sonofabitch sodomized that child....and she died from it. 

The P.O.S that gave birth to that poor baby

The icing on this shit cake, is that the bitch.....gosh...bitch is just too nice for her....

Okay, the baby's SO CALLED mother, allowed all this to happen. She even encouraged it. 

I won't get into how monumentally FUCKED UP this all is....cause I would hope that anyone reading this would come to that conclusion on their own.

The point is how could this "God", allow for that child, or ANY child really, to go through something like that? To suffer in such a horrid way? Why not toss a lightening bolt at her mother and the douche that put his hands on her? Almighty??? I think, maybe not!

It's not just that either, there are soooo many things messed up with our world and getting into even a few of them would take quite a few posts. 

The moral of my story is not that God does not exist.....its that, if he/she does...now would be a great time to make your appearance, your losing your following!

F&%K them skinny bitches......

It took me a long time to decide, that I was okay with not being a size 2.

I used to gaze longingly, at the wisps of fabric that are skinny girl clothes. I yearned to bare my midriff and show off my imaginary "tramp stamp" in low-rise jeans. 

But after years of dreaming about these things....and still waking up a "fat chick".....I have decided to embrace my size and love ALL of me....just the way my husband does.

Yesterday, I would have envied your size 2 jeans and revealing tank top. Today, I say "your a size 2 huh? Well my jeans, ate yours and a couple of its friends....." 

I don't resent the skinny girls of the world. The modest, health conscious, high metabolism having....girls of the world.

 I just can't stand those skinny bitches out there. 

You know who I'm talking about:

 The girls that don't own any clothing, they don't have to peel off.

The girls that take 2 bites of food and play full....YOU KNOW DAMN WELL YOUR HUNGRY!!! EAT BITCH!!!

The girls that look at us "fat chicks" with disgust and question "how can they walk around like that?".....We're on our way to our next meal...and I hate you.

The girls that just can't understand what "HE is doing with HER". (It's all about the cushion and the pushin')

The girls that shoot us the evil eye, for crossing that invisible barrier between "juniors" and "plus size"....like we could POSSIBLY fit anything in their world!!!

The girls that concern themselves with "OMG,, look how big her ass is"....then just have to ask their plastic surgeons..."How did it get big like that on it's own?"

The girls that wear next to nothing in public, but just know they look HOT....yea bitch...that's why everyone is staring at your starved ass.

THESE, are the girls that I just cannot and will not tolerate any longer.

THESE are the girls that will have me put a little more swish in my step.

That will have me partake in P.D.A. with my trim and fit husband, just to mess with them.

That will cause me to seek out ass hugging "fat girl" jeans, just to show off my AMAZING curves. 

I will love ALL of me, whether you like it or not. Cause I'm not a "fat chick", I'm a thick chick. I'm a healthy chick.....and I know that just kills you!! 

So...in closing....

To all you skinny bitches of the world....F&%K YOU, from all us "fat chicks"!!!

Now THAT'S hot!!!!

I HATE THAT KID!!!!!

Caillou...from PBS. Yea, you know who I am talking about. I can't stand that little bastard. He whines and his voice is generally annoying.

 So naturally, my girls love him.

Today, my daughters had a Caillou-athon on Netflix.

I am ready to shoot myself....

Or the television....

Or both.

I thank God everyday, for my laptop and my kindle and my IPad. I can be in the same room as my children and still have no clue what just happened in their shows....muuuaahahhahaaa!!!!

Gotta love modern technology!!

Up on my bright yellow soap box.....

I have already discussed bullies and what they did to me. You already know my feelings, about those who choose to make others suffer through their evilness. Well, I am hopping back up on my soap box because now, the devastating effects of bullying have hit home. 

I have never been one for bullying, other than picking on my kid brother, or poking fun at friends and family. I can't remember a time, when I intentionally inflicted anyone with any kind of emotional hurt. Maybe I did and if so I am apologizing right here and right now, with all the sincerity in the world. I am truly sorry to anyone that may feel that I hurt them for no good reason. I am very sorry. 

An old neighbor and friend of ours, lost his son the other day. He took his own life as a result of bullying. He was very young. Just starting his high school career, just starting to come into his own. Now he is gone, so he will never get to enjoy all the better times that were ahead of him. He'll never get to see how irrelevant all the douche bags he went to high school with, really are. This is all because he was a little different. He didn't look like MTV just shat him out. He didn't follow after the "popular" kids like a good little lemming. And because of that, he became a target. 

How is it, that someone can raise their child to be so insecure, that they take pleasure in tormenting others? How can you not teach your children, that it's better to be nice to others? I mean it's really very basic. This is a lesson taught in preschool. Be kind to each other. Why are parents not teaching this at home? How can a parent tolerate having an asshole for a child? I mean, I don't see how a bully can go to school, treat others like shit, them come home and be so much of an angel that you really have no clue how cruel they are. In that case, your child is a sociopath and perhaps you have much bigger issues at hand. 

There is no excuse for the parents of bullies. You are doing a bad job. You are failing to raise a valuable member of society. Plain and simple. In today's world, tolerance is an absolute necessity for life. There are so many races and nationalities mixing and shaking that you never know what "someone is", unless you ask, which is not always appreciated. Then of course there are all the MANY different faiths being practiced, that add to our melting pot. There are the variety of sexual preferences that are not always as obvious as you may think. There are so many "different" people, just here is the U.S., that tolerance should be a natural thing to all the younger and future generations. 

But, my generation and the ones before mine, are tools. So now, we are teaching our children to be tools. Even if you don't think you are. When you shout racial slurs at your television, or jokingly call someone a "fag" or "homo", your teaching your children those skewed beliefs. Guys, when you call a women a "useless bitch" or a "slut", your teaching your sons to have those same ideas about women. Children learn what the live. If they live in a home full of intolerance, they will learn that it is acceptable to be just that, intolerant. 

I should say this though, its not really just parents that are to blame, though they hold the highest percentage. It does, in fact, take a community to raise a child. When we send our children off to school, we are giving the responsibility of not only protecting them, but molding them into civilized and educated individuals, to the school staff. For a school to allow a child to be bullied, so much so that they feel the only escape is death, that school is failing us and our children. 

I don't get it, it's really not that complicated. Teach your children to be nice. SIMPLE....be nice to others, lesson complete. In this house, my children aren't even allowed to use words that could hurt someones feelings. Words like "FAT", "UGLY", "STUPID", those are all bad words in my crib. Some people find that silly, but let me tell you this, at EVERY parent/teacher conference I have had with my 7 and 5 year old's teachers, they ALWAYS praise my kids for how kind they are. They ALWAYS tell me, that my children have so many friends and that everyone likes them because they are so nice. My daughters teacher just adores her and is always raving about her "kind heart". I am not claiming to be a better parent than those of you who allow your children to use such words. But are teachers saying the same things about your kids?

It has to stop, babies should not be killing themselves like this. This is an epidemic that HAS A CURE. It's up to us, the adults...to implement it. WE have got to FIGHT FOR OUR CHILDREN!!!! Enough is enough. Don't let it matter, only after its come to your front door. 

I pray that Mikey rests in peace. He didn't deserve this, so I will pray for his attackers as well. Make some noise in honor of your kids people, before it's just too late.

North Korea....take a chill pill!!!

WTF???? Okay first off, I am getting really tired of how our countries leaders, just volunteer us for random shit. I truly believe that any and all participation from the U.S., should be a decision left to the American people. Not left to some old guys, locked in an eternal weenie wagging contest.

Okay so North Korea has it's panties in a bunch....again. It's threatened to bomb some pretty major cities in the U.S. It's also talking MAD SHIT to South Korea, threatening to rape their first female president...among other things. 

Is it just me, or does all this anger and violence give anyone else a headache? It seems to me like all of this is just about superiority. Everyone wants to be the better, more powerful country. I wonder...if the leaders of all these countries were to take mass polls, asking its citizens how they feel about war and all its properties....I wonder if they would find, that most people aren't interested in it. I bet they would find that most people, really don't give a shit about who is doing what in another country. 

I think that people already have enough to worry about in their respective homelands, to spend any more time worrying about another. Then they add the stress and threat of us losing more of our men and women overseas. It just doesn't make any sense. 

It's none of our business!!! Whatever financial ties we have to these other companies, should remain BUSINESS!!!! Don't make things personal by claiming to be on the ready to back someone else, when the shit hits the fan. I mean seriously....we are adults, we were supposed to put those bullshit "I got your back bro" days, behind us. Grow up world leaders.....take care of your OWN problems and mind your OWN business!!! 

BLA....now I am all flustered again. 

 South Korea warns North of 'strong response' to any attack - CNN.com

I'M NOT THE ONE!!!!

Yesterday, my son had a substitute bus driver. The bus (with kids from K-3rd grade) pulls up to the stop after school, the man opens the door and stands up, then proceeds to yell at all the children on the bus. It was ridiculous and very uncalled for, it also got a few of the parents worked up. One little boy ( a kindergartner) gets off the bus and breaks into tears. His mother approached the bus to confront the driver and after shouting at her to take it up with administration, he puts up his hand (we used to call it "talk to the hand"). So by that time, I am already pissed. His treatment of the little boys mother.....was the straw that broke this camels back. 

I have my phone out, all ready to call the transportation office. I am waiting patiently for this man to stop barking at the children (like a drill instructor) and address me, so I can get his name. Do you know this asshole had the nerve to close the doors on me?!?!? I was livid!! 

So I stomp back home, find the number to the transportation office and prepare to raise hell. I have to admit, I was not ready for what I got. The woman that answered, was the usual bus driver. I told her about the situation and her response was that it was hard to believe, since the man is sooo soft spoken and sweet. He's a pastor and is just the nicest man you'd want to me. 

I was flabbergasted!  Did she just call me a LIAR?? I tried to keep my cool, I really did, but she wouldn't relent. She insisted that he could not have done such a thing because he's such a WONDERFUL man. I even went as far as to tell her "all you had to do, was say you'd take care of it, talk to him. Even if you were bullshitting me, at least it would have shut me up". 

I think she informed me of his being a pastor, like 2 or 3 times. The last time she said it, I replied with "I don't care is Jesus himself is driving, no one is going to talk to my son like that". I don't know what will come of all this, since she claimed she was going to watch the video from the bus. So we'll just have to see come Monday.

Have people gone completely mad? Is there no longer a difference between the treatment of adults versus children?? I think about the bus driver that pushed the handicapped girl off the bus, causing her to break her ankle. Or the man on the plane that called a BABY a "Ni**er" and slapped him. It's craziness!! 

Here is the thing though. I have VERY LITTLE tolerance, when it comes to my family. I am a fighter by nature, who is trying to live the lesson "Use your words". But these people have got the WRONG ONE!! UGH....tryin to break my inner peace....douche!!

ATTN BULLIES: I WIN, YOU LOSE!!!

Lemme just make something clear, before I step up onto my soapbox. Fat people...don't generally like being fat. We don't wake up on ANY particular morning and think to ourselves "Self, lets see how many calories we can load up on today...just to make life THAT much harder!!" Also, people that (by societies standards) aren't considered to be attractive, didn't actually ask to be born looking the way they do. Just kind of happened. 

Some will say that it's God's f-ed up sense of humor. Others say it's what makes us unique. I say...its was gives all the cruel-hearted, self loathing, insensitive, malicious butt-holes (AKA Bullies), the ammunition they need to make others suffer.

Being fat/ugly/skinny/too tall/too short/black/hispanic/Asian/any other minority group/too dark complected/to fair skinned/red headed/freckled/course haired/thin haired/gay/lesbian/smart/not so smart/poor....really anything that makes someone different, makes it okay to disrespect and hurt another human being?

 If you haven't guessed it by now, I am in a mood. I am SICK of the way people treat others. I am SICK of the hurt that people have to feel just because someone thinks they are superior to them. I am SO OVER thinking less of myself, because all my life, there have been people saying or doing things that cause me to doubt that I am good enough. I was never allowed to be comfortable in my own fluffy, brown skin. I had surgery, lost over a hundred pounds and ended up with a butt-load of other health issues, as well as STILL being self conscious, just because I didn't look like the evil bitches I went to school with. 

I'm not blaming being obese, on anyone. I am not blaming the color of my skin, on anyone.  I am blaming my feelings on being those things, on all of the people throughout my life, that have teased me. I DO NOT like the fact that even as an adult, I still harbor all these negative feelings towards irrelevant people. 

So I am speaking my peace. I am letting it all out....then I am moving on. I AM FAT! I HAVE BROWN SKIN! MY HAIR IS THICK AND CURLY! I HAVE BLEMISHES! I AM NOT PERFECT! But guess what...neither are you! I will no longer envy ANY of what you are. I will no longer strive to be ANYTHING like you. I am my own person, I have a husband and children and family, that love me for all of my imperfections. I will no longer beat myself up about things that I NEVER had any control over. 

I will, however, try to live a healthier life and be a happier me....to be certain, that you don't win. And I forgive you. I forgive you for your insensitivity and your ignorance. I only hope that your weight, doesn't ever become an issue for you. Or that you give birth to PERFECT children, so that they never fall victim to a bully....ya know, someone like you! 

To all of you, who don't think your good enough. YOU ARE!! Don't listen to those that say different. They are sad sad people, who need a hug. If you have children who are being bullied, do something about it. Make some noise in honor of your kids. A little embarrassment now, will earn you a lot of respect later. If you used to be bully, make peace with your victims. Odds are, they still remember you. If you have a child who is a bully, PUT IT TO A STOP!!! It's a cycle that HAS TO END! 

My mom used to tell me "Be careful how you treat people, you never know if your entertaining an angel....or the Devil himself". Remember this, life is hard enough without anyone adding more shit to the pot. You never know what someone is dealing with at home, that they have to carry with them throughout the day. You never know what effect your unkind words or actions will have on someone. What if that one cruel thing you say or do....is the "one thing too many", that pushes someone over the edge, and they take their life or the lives of others. Be nice to one another....it's a lesson you should have learned in preschool.